the hanging on and letting go
passings and new lives beginning
for all of those moments in between
filled with held breath and secret hopes
for the things i said and some words i wish i hadn't
living in so much light
this year i find myself squinting
honesty and being vulnerable
asking for what i want
delivery

a fullness in my life that i can only say is life

full
and ever grateful
wishing you warmth friends
xo
A

this is just to say,

** no two babies are alike, stepping into a life with three little ones makes you know that even more.
**staying open and lowering expectations makes the days go by easier.
**sleep is wonderful and no matter how much you want to make something or photograph that, or just quickly do whatever - choose sleep.
** an overtired mum is no good to anyone, including herself.
**accept that you will be forever interrupted. breathe deep and dig deep for that fleck of patience left in you and give it to the little ones in your life. you'll sleep better tonight.
**saying "i'm sorry" is a relief for all parties involved if there is a blow out.
**a trip to the coffee shop with your oldest is a fun date and you will leave full and with a smile. i promise. (keep in mind #2)
**if it's been awhile since you've been to the mall and you are feeling a little frumpy, a little chubby, far from feeling pretty, i am telling you don't go. just stay out of that place for a bit longer. trust me on this....
**having three little people to get ready to go anywhere takes a lot more time than you think it will. give yourself the gift of time. seriously. prepare the night before and plan for an extra hour of searching the house for one shoe, or jacket, or a load of laundry because there's no underwear for anyone.
**if you haven't checked out the local library's children story hours, you must. it may even be worth going to the next town over if nothing strikes your fancy where you live. it's fun, free, and someone else is doing the reading for a change.i love it.
**balance may be a myth. we are getting by on "one day at a time", sometimes hour by hour...
** getting outside to walk everyday is necessary. if you live in new england and it is between the months of Nov. and April than yes, from the car to the storefront counts - if you remember to walk chin up and look up to the sky at least once. and take a few big breaths in.
fresh air will do a girl a world of good, your mother was right
**if you haven't already started bringing books with you in your bag than go fill 'er up. i read in waiting lines and sometimes in parking lots when the babe has fallen asleep in our travels.

so what's going on in your world? how are you getting by?

one of those times

when everything i touch breaks and
the words come out wrong
every time i open my mouth

it's been that way for a few weeks...

maybe it's time to pick up the camera again. the digi still functioning one. gosh, i'm nervous to even think about touching it. seriously, it's been like that.